Thursday, November 9th, 2006

Time:

4:42 pm.

well today im feeling much better and working for my dad all day. 8-4...blah. im so bored. theres only so much you can do on the computer before you go crazy. but the money will be good. im buying a new pair of hudsons today so i def need moolah. my cars in the shop for crappy car related issues. should get it back today. matt hurt his eye but tonight we're going to hoopers for party time corkscrew madness style.

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Wednesday, November 1st, 2006

Time:

4:22 pm.

so last night i just hung out at matts like always. i went back and was reading entries and i really wasnt happy with him for a long time. so maybe its better we're broken up but still together. now i want to be his girlfriend though. i dont know if we'll ever get back together, we've been thru everything together.

anyway today i went and interviewed to work at south seas or sundial. i really hope i get the job. it would be so much fun to work on sanibel/captiva. even if it was just for a few months. i really only need a job until school starts. which i dont want to go to but whatever. anyways im missing my matthew. i wish he didnt have to work.

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Tuesday, October 31st, 2006

Time:

11:32 pm.

im at matts we're drinking and hanging out and smoking gang cause i yaked it all up. i really love him. he stood by me thru think and thin thru everything. hes the love of my life and someday i hope we'll be clean and sober and married.

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Time:

8:51 pm.

im a bad influence on myself. yak on a tuesday. yakity yak yak yak.

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Time:

7:35 pm.

so a couple weeks ago my mom and i joined a gym. i've been going but i know im not pushing myself hard enough. cardio is a bitch. i am so out of shape. tomorrow im doing weights so maybe those will be easier. muscle does burn more fat than cardio. time to get funnies.

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Thursday, October 5th, 2006

Time:

12:25 pm.

well i got a job...maybe two. the first is doing front desk work at this no name salon in nofo. the downside to it is its ghetto and in nofo and the commute woouldnt be a fun one. the other maybe job is at vincents. i am waiting for vinny to call me back about coming in for an interview. i have until tuesday(when im supposed to start at the first place) to get this job. wish me luck!

other than that things are going good. matt and i are doing awesome and that makes me very happy.

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Thursday, September 28th, 2006

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6:52 pm.

right now i am waiting for my dad to get home with pizza. my aunt took me out to get a pedicure and moose is with matt and i miss him! he's getting so big, like 25lbs now. other than that as soon as i get a job i get my own apartment so i need to get one fast!

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Wednesday, September 27th, 2006

Time:

11:33 pm.

so gainesville wasnt all that great. the game was long and it was a lot of hanging out with people who i wasnt that comfortable around. i used to be so outgoing. oh yeah and on top of that matt thinks i cheated on him. we didnt get into a huge fight about it though. thank god. i'd have to just say fuck it. like i ever could say that.

right now im trying to stay up later so i can sleep the day away. i cant wait for this weekend. i know im probably going to be bad and get crazy, but im dying to. like i have an itch to just party. too bad matt probably wont have that much money. i need to get my own job i know. i've started looking at least! i applied at like 10 places on careerbuilder.com no callbacks yet.

i feel like my life's sort of getting on track though. i have a job to look for, and i really want to work. i've started looking for apartments and apartment furniture. this will be my apartment. right down to the color i paint the walls. im sure matt will be there a lot, but hopefully school and work will keep my busy and then also keeping my fingers crossed a sorority. we'll see at fgcu. we'll see about fgcu in general. waiting on hearing back from them too.

so just a lot of waiting.

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Friday, May 12th, 2006

Time:

5:50 pm.

so basically.
i ate a bunch of bars and lost my mind.
two weeks ago
i left town and went to gainesville.
where i was pushed almost over the edge by a little pompous asshole.
i do not respond well to threats
needless to say they have my shit and i am in fort myers living out of my car mostly. a shower here and there. i've slept at matts the past few nights, but its mostly me and the explorer.
i want my computer, my clothes, my life back.
i've been sober for 14 days and im the only one who can say congrats to myself.
this is one of those times when i really am thinking i'd be better off dead...but i wouldnt ever get that crazy.
im looking for a place to move asap.
i want to be blonder, tanner, thinner, funner. i want to get excited about more than a meal!
how did i go from being a lawyers daughter with daddys credit card to a hobo.
fuck.

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Tuesday, May 2nd, 2006

Time:

8:54 pm.

i moved to gainesville. i live with david. i dont know what the hecks going on, im broke, trying to be sober, and killing time. if ANYONE is going home for the weekend (to fort myers) please let me hitch a ride! i have to get home for melissa and dan's wedding!! please help me out!

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Monday, April 17th, 2006

Time:

8:29 am.

wow i feel almost wierd updating this thing. i am a true myspacer i guess now. although i dont really want to write the things i'd write on here on there...

so easter weekend was fun. matt came with me to my familys easter party and then we went to his parents. being broken up has really made me closer to his family. i know officially we're broken up, but we still spend every bit of time together...at least every bit im not with liz.

melissa is getting married in two weeks!i have to order my bridesmaids dress today. too bad they are so not as cute as my jcrew ones i wanted us to get. whatever. im sure there be some other stuff i can guy also. it's going to be so much fun. and im going to cry cry cry!

anyway so i no longer work at the spa. i needed to take time off to get ready to move and stuff. although now i really want to push chicago back another month. i need to have a vacay! well thats it for now. leave me some love guys!

also how do i make my livejournal as cute as my myspace??

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Friday, March 10th, 2006

Time:

8:30 am.

its never easy to accept change. going back home to fort myers after this week is going to be a wake up call. granted i've loved every second i've been in chicago, i've also had my heart broken. something i always wanted will never be. but you know what? everything happens for a reason. excuses are excuses. and thats all they are. nothing more, nothing less. never move somewhere for someone else. i realized i moved home last year because i was scared. i was scared to be alone. but the thing is, i always was alone. i still am, now more than ever. so here i am, moving to some huge city. alone, and scared, with a broken heart, and theres nothing i want to do more than make it.

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Wednesday, December 28th, 2005

Time:

10:40 pm.

i still cant believe its true. he isnt going to be at my wedding. he isnt going to be there to see my children, to see my finish school. i want him ot be there. he was too young to go. it isnt fair. i should have gone up there, not partied all night. yeah thats right i partied all night long which is why i was not there the day he died. i just thought he'd have one more day. but i am such a fuck up . i didnt get to say goodbye.

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Wednesday, December 21st, 2005

Time:

1:20 pm.

so i've had the flu for the last week or so. i finally made myself take a real sick day and have been sleeping and watching movies. tomorrow i'm getting a facial, fill and pedi. then its christmas!! yay! i need to clean my room out in a big way today. but i might just rest and watch more movies!
*b

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Tuesday, December 20th, 2005

Time:

12:37 am.

3 glasses of wine, + 1/2 a bae + 6 beers + vodka and cran + partying at bennigans w the most random people + thanks andrea for the ride = a crazy drive home, but i think im gtonna be fine.

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Saturday, December 3rd, 2005

Time:

9:06 pm.

Christian LOUBOUTIN shoes are better than SEX.

end of discussion.

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Friday, November 4th, 2005

Time:

8:20 am.

yesterday...work w/ liz...olive garden--too much food, too many champagney drinks...then to matts, run errands, smokey bones to meet shannon...more drinks..to fridays...see brian, katie, brandon, the skank...drink drink drink...to matts. shannon is sleeping in adams room...since 5am...she has to work at 11. i do not have to work and i did not sleep. great start to the weekend ese. matt mcnear is probably like my fav person to stay up all night with. and oh yes, my drinking skills have gotten to be pretty damned good.

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Sunday, February 13th, 2005